Anxiety Timeline


First Scary Experience

I’m in 6th grade. I get in the car with my mom to go school. As the ride begins - this ‘thing’ happens. I feel like...I don’t know, something isn’t right. I guess I am not sure who or what I am in this moment. I’m scared. I look at my mom, the world around me, not really sure what it all is. Whatever my life is, I think to myself, I won’t be in it long. Something is definitely wrong with me. I don’t say a word to my mom and just pretend it didn’t happen. In a few minutes, I was back to my normal self. Glad that’s gone.

Oct 28, 1994

Bedtime

I’m a junior in high school. Night. As I lay down in bed, there “it” is again. I am freaked out, just don’t know what’s going on. I step out of my room and look over the balcony at my parents below, who are still up watching television. I feel weird, I tell them. They do all the parent things - check my throat, feel my forehead, etc. They are concerned, but don’t know how to help.

Sep 14, 1999

10 Years Later....Still There

I’m 27 years old. Something is terribly wrong! As the day begins on a mission trip in Costa Rica, my heart is pounding, sweat emanates from my palms. It like it’s all - not real. What is this?! Am I in a video game? Am I going crazy? What is this consciousness that I have? I am trapped in my own body. I’m maybe just as terrified to ask for help. But convinced I am going to die, I tell the leader of our group that something is wrong. I go to a doctor, get prescribed an anti-inflammatory or something like that, then meet back up with the group. Whatever is going on, there’s no more pretending it doesn’t exist.

Dec 28, 2009

Emergency Room On My Birthday

I’m 30 years old exactly. I arrive at the emergency room the night of my birthday, October 14. After hours in the waiting room, not sure I would live to see the doctor, I finally get to tell him what happened. I was exercising in the park. All this came over me - couldn’t breathe, out of body experience, rapid heartbeat, it’s like a nightmare. Doc says “Test results are good, you’re a healthy young man.” What? Not possible! “It looks like you had a panic attack,” says the doctor. Panic attack?? I mean...really? So….what do I do now? “I’d go see a therapist,” says the doc as he walks off leaving me in my in my blue gown. The next morning, it all begins. I would go on to do it all: read dozens of self help books, saw five different therapists with little effect, completed programs like Landmark Education and a 12 step, became a member on websites about anxiety and depression, even began counseling others as I started to understand my illness. It would get better and much worse.

Oct 14, 2012

Making Progress

While I am still struggling, I had made progress and want to help people suffering from the same thing. I begin a YouTube channel talking about anxiety (and relationships). I take calls, emails and video chat with people around the world facing panic attacks, DP/DR (depersonalization/derealization), and just general anxiety. This is a big problem, and people need help, but family, doctors, and everyone else seems to know nothing about it. I'm not sure how to exactly go about it, but it's a start.

Jun 07, 2014

Total Crash

I thought I was done with it all?!?!? Did I really get anywhere or was it all in my mind? Not only did I experience depersonalization this time, but also felt depression, which was unbelievable. Everything I had felt before was multiplied by 10. Not able to function, I immediately flew home to be with family. But what could I do? I had to go through it all again, had to face it. I accepted it, went back to my coping tools and strategies, and gradually worked myself into a manageable state.

Mar 01, 2015

Extreme Recovery

Today, I still have some symptoms of DP/DR and anxiety, but it doesn’t bother me. And despite it, I am truly thriving. I understand the reasons behind the anxiety, panic attacks, DP/DR and everything that goes with it. Mountains that seemed impossible to climb have been scaled, bit by bit. Will I experience it again? Possibly. And I’m mentally prepared. Since my worst episode, I’ve earned a Master’s Degree in School Counseling, obtained a professional job, became a homeowner, got engaged after a wonderful two-year relationship, and have significantly improved loving relationships with self, family and friends. I’ve even learned how to let go and "have fun" as they say...not easy! I can't take any credit, really. Rather I attribute others, programs, resources and a little luck for these successes.

Jun 20, 2016

Anxiety Help With Wes

Launched podcast Anxiety Help With Wes!

Jun 06, 2018